When I’m with you there is just this feeling, my heart starts to beat faster I just feel so good like I can fly. I would give anything just for you to be with me again without you I feel so empty. But it seems that you don’t have time for me.

I cherish you, I love you and I’m so glad I found you. I cherish the time we spent together – every hug, every kiss, walking, talking, holding hands. My heart aches at the thought of not being with you. But then logic and reason get my head together and I find a way to put up with your staggering absence. There´s nothing else I can when this crushing desire comes out of the blue trying to drag me towards you like a loadstone. I´m feeling sad and lonely these days and I can´t help thinking of you. I’m not beating myself up for it because I know it’s so hard to deal with the pain, the darkness, and the fear of being alone. But all of this comes from my desire to be loved, which is one of my most beautiful qualities.Īt the same time, you should know that I am here for you. I realize all of these things, and I want to let you know that it’s okay. Thoughts that only puts a Band-Aid on my wounds. Thoughts that gives me frustration and regret, and makes me tired. I also know that I have tried to fill that empty space with plenty of thoughts. I am missing you so badly because sometimes it’s so quiet and painful I know this, and that’s why I sometimes fill my life with words, messages which don’t appreciate or honor I like I deserve.

Crushing Desire by April Dawn